You wouldn't believe you if I told you myself.

In the last couple of months I've moved into a new place --> watched my dad go to and from S. Africa--> became a live-in-nanny and started getting really into this photography thing. Check out my website www.spaphotographs.com It's legit :) I'm the worst blogger on earth.

Selfish Time of Year

This time of year I am either trying to ignore a feeling in my gut or bursting every five minutes into tears. This year, I've done a little bit of both. I'm always talking about myself. Inside and outside. ME, ME, ME. I don't like it, but it's all bottling up about this time, and I've got to let it out sometime, so I guess I fall back on the excuse that the 20th of February is the anniversary of my mother's death. It will be five years this year and it feels almost a lifetime a way. I guess I wouldn't call it an "Anniversary" that's a more positive thinking. This isn't really positive, but I can't make it all negative. I have to remember her and do what she would do today.I think about how she would be 41 in April and I almost cry. She was so young when she died. I miss her a lot. I miss talking with her, I can't talk to my father about anything. I try, believe me I try, but in the end it never works and I'm back to the beginning trying all over again. I'm stubborn and I fight back. That's the way I am, and if you tell me to me quiet I'll just get louder. I guess I am feeling a little down about expectations. My cat, Scout is missing, and people are just drifting away. I don't know why I allow them to return when they just drift away and ignore me, or I do the same. I guess there is no point. If you can live without a person for a month, then you can live without them forever. That's the way I feel. & WITHOUT, meaning no talking or even existing to them. I guess I am content with just being me, and whoever wants to be with me, hop on board, other than that I can't waste my time begging for their attention. I think I'd rather die then feel that way again. I feel like I always have to please people, well I'm done! It's not that easy, but I'm going to try to just be happy, and include people, but not to the point where I am bleeding to get their attention. Well that's enough selfishness for one night.

-Sam

The Month of Love

Oh boy am I grateful to get to look forward to such a wonderful vacation coming so soon I am going crazy for this month to go by! March will be here before I know it, I guess, but I can't wait any long! I am busy busy busy! Rehearsal, homework, and fitting it shoots as much as possible! I haven't been doing a whole lot other than rehearsal, eat, sleep and work. I haven't had a whole lot of me time, and I'm thrilled that I will be getting just that, along with family and friends in March. Las Vegas and California--> the two places I can go over and over again and never get bored. I'd choose Vegas and Cali over the North any day! I have barely seen my friends, but the other day my best friend and I went to see When in Rome and it was hilarious :] I recommend it, if you're looking for a laugh!

Fantastic Future!

January is almost over! I haven't done any new shoots lately! I have been so busy. I have a few family, personal portraits, and a possible wedding shoot in the future. I am excited. I also have a few set senior portraits for the graduates of 2011 on my calendar! I am thrilled to see people enjoying my portraits. I am going to Las Vegas, Nevada and Long Beach, California for spring break, not to mention Disneyland :) I will hopefully be staying right on the beach where I plan to take tons of photos and I am searching for a new fabulous camera that I have in mind :) It's exciting and I am also going to be a "Live-in-Nanny" starting mid-March. I can't wait, and I'm sure I'll have tons of photos of the girls. They are changing quickly and I enjoy spending time with them. I have my last final year at Upward Bound this summer, although I hope to be a bridge student *fingers crossed* I am thrilled to know I get to go to Africa in August! :) A crap-load of pictures will be coming from that adventure!!!! I am taking my cousin's senior portraits in March and hopefully I can take my other cousins portraits with her and her new baby that is due in February! I am excited for the challenges to come and I hope time will fly, but I too can enjoy my days. :)

I'd love to take portraits whenever and however!
Give me a call/e-mail.

Africa in August

Hello everyone.
I am excited to say that I will be taking at trip to The Safari Lands of Africa. It is a joy to share this with you. I will be bringing back many portraits of all the people and creatures that come along my path as I discover the wonders of Africa. My father will be staying in Africa starting in March of 2010 and I will be a live in Nanny in my little old town of Pocatello, Idaho. I will still be available for photos, don't worry :) But I will be traveling in August not only to Africa but the United States as well. I'd love to discover more of the South part of the US. I haven't traveled any further than New Mexico. I'd love to go to Georgia and Tennessee. I can't wait for March to go to California for Spring Break; including Disneyland :) I am excited for this summer and my last "official" year with Upward Bound as a High School student. I hope to be a Bridge Student "College Student" the following Summer, but it all depends on if whether or not I am selected to be apart of that. I have done pretty well, so I am confident I will be on their list :)
Rehearsals for the musical this years seem slow, only because I am not doing it every night like I did freshman year, but it gives me more time to focus on school work and not get too behind. I am babysitting for Janae on Tuesdays and will be until March 9th. I will be moving in with her, her husband, and two daughters to be A-Live-In-Nanny until August after Spring Break. I am excited and I hope it will be a learning experience. Hope January is going well for all of you, and I hope to keep up on my Calendar :) I've decided since I will be traveling a lot, that this Calendar doesn't have to be just an Idaho Calendar, but whatever I come across. I hope I can accomplish this. Wish me luck and I hope to blog later.

-Samantha Paige Averett

Merry Christmas Eve.

Hello everyone,
I truly hope you have a wonderful holiday season. This new year is a fresh clean slate. Take it all in and cherish the moments you are given. I know I want to start fresh and enjoy this new year. :) I am in the musical which will be lovely, and I will experiencing all kinds of new fun!
Enjoy waiting up for Santa tonight! Cookies and milk, good old traditions!

-sam

Heaven was needing an Angel

I love the way you smile at me
I love the way you'll always be
I love it when we work all day
& come to a conclusion that we'll be okay

I love it when at night you pray
That miracles will surround our coming day
I love it when you think of others
& say "They're no different then us" they all have mothers

I've learned a few things here and there
Like how to love, forgive and share
When I surround myself with you
Being kind is all I want to do

I miss your voice when you're not around
Sometimes I call your phone, only to hear your sound.
It's amazing just to be around
Let alone being able to all year 'round :)

Let's have an awesome new year
Spread the laughter, no fear
I'm missing you already, come home soon
I'll keep playing that silly tune :)