Inches to Miles (Inspirational Letter)

Dear friend,
I’m not going to lie to you, because that’s not something I can easily do. I won’t tell you life is simple and kind, because the truth is I’d only make you blind. The moment I met you I knew you were meant for wondrous places. Nothing can stop you including the judgmental faces. I want you to know I’ve never given up on you, because that’s not something I can easily do.

You’re not always going to have me by your side. I hope you know when to draw the line. Jump off cliffs, stand up for yourself, take turns, be blunt, and enjoy the ride. This world will surprise you and the only thing certain is change. You were born to see the best part of the world come to life. You are meant to be an example with not only your worlds but your actions; no matter how tough the classes with all the vocabulary and fractions, you’re not done yet so don’t stop here.

My friend, mistakes have your name written all over them, but that’s okay. You’re courageous enough to learn from them. If only it were as easy to jump or crawl under your trials, but to be honest you must face them head on before they change from inches to miles. You will meet people you adore, and with some you’d rather just close the door. This part of life may be a blessing in disguise and yet another surprise. My friend, I’d love to hold your hand today, but I know you’re already on your way. You may lose this battle, but I’m certain this is your war to win. If you find yourself crying please know it’s not a crime. We all fall down sometimes.

My friend, the beauty of it all is you have the strength inside to find the light. You’ll make the decision to get up and fight. Perfection is not in the books for you, my friend, but that’s not what’s going to get you through in the end. Your bold personality and endless curiosity will take you on paths of unknown. You’ll be thankful when you see how much you’ve conquered and grown. Regardless of the struggles you are handed, I know you will handle them accordingly. You’ve got a talent; therefore, you must protect it ever so cautiously.

People will want to bring you down. It’s only natural to want to frown. I see a sparkle in your eye though, and with great purpose you’ll find another tomorrow. You’re only just beginning your journey. Take this letter as your road map and know I love you, because that is something I can easily do.

Winter Sickness

It's almost as if I've been sick for a month now. The weather has been nice up until today. It started to rain and snow and I'm afraid it's going to stick. I've been coughing with a runny nose and it's endless. Just your usual flu/cold thing, but it's ongoing. It sucks. I've missed some school, but it's not a whole lot to miss. All I have is government and it's nothing I can't read from my text book. I do miss school though and feeling 100% better with all the energy. I haven't been myself lately and so I'm hoping tomorrow will be different and I'll get back to my routine. I still hope I can make my trip to Logan, if no than it will have to be in December. Well, adios for now.

USU Campus Tour

It's set. November 19th. I'm going down to Logan, Utah. I'm pumped! My friends and I are going to check out the campus. It's not my first time, but it's my first time that I will actually remember --> & I'm not going there as the granddaughter of an employee this time, but as a curious incoming freshman ;) It's exciting and I shall have tons of fun along with friends. Money saving time, haha! I'll be taking family portraits here soon so I'm sure I'll have enough to get there and back. I wanted to do it before the Thanksgiving Break just so that I can know for sure if it's the school for me. It's so beautiful there and I want nothing more than to go there. I have a few friends that attend USU, but that's not why I would go there. It's far enough away from home that I can handle it, but not too far that I will freak out. Haha.

Well that's about it for now!

The Perks of Blogging

You can get the word out to those far and near from you who you don't always talk with but would still like them to know what's going on.
You can get everything out on the table with all the trials and live changing events and call it journalism.


It's been a wonderful awful fabulous irritating last few months. I NEED to blog to get it out. I'm really a positive person around friends and whatnot--> but whenever the word FAMILY enters my mind things go up hill and I can't find a fence to jump over or bridge to quietly cross, instead I must endure the nightmare that occurs around them. Ok, so it's not THAT bad, but it isn't too pleasant either.

I've been going to counseling and boy has that been the savior of my sanity.

I'm a photographer. I'm figuring out my future business but right now I'm pretty content with what I've been doing.

I want to be an Aggie. Utah State is my home. Logan, Utah is beautiful and I can't wait to move there (hopefully!!!) That's my goal as of now! I want to get the 100 mile radius scholarship, but either way I'm heading that direction for college with ever fiber of my being if I can help it. It's my only way out! Summer school at ISU then off to Utah State!

I have tons to be thankful for. I don't know if I'm getting into the holiday spirit or if opportunity has arose but either way I'm excited to begin my future today.

Please remind me to blog. It's difficult finding time out of my oh so busy senior year (NOT) but I'll do my best.

THE END .

You wouldn't believe you if I told you myself.

In the last couple of months I've moved into a new place --> watched my dad go to and from S. Africa--> became a live-in-nanny and started getting really into this photography thing. Check out my website www.spaphotographs.com It's legit :) I'm the worst blogger on earth.

Selfish Time of Year

This time of year I am either trying to ignore a feeling in my gut or bursting every five minutes into tears. This year, I've done a little bit of both. I'm always talking about myself. Inside and outside. ME, ME, ME. I don't like it, but it's all bottling up about this time, and I've got to let it out sometime, so I guess I fall back on the excuse that the 20th of February is the anniversary of my mother's death. It will be five years this year and it feels almost a lifetime a way. I guess I wouldn't call it an "Anniversary" that's a more positive thinking. This isn't really positive, but I can't make it all negative. I have to remember her and do what she would do today.I think about how she would be 41 in April and I almost cry. She was so young when she died. I miss her a lot. I miss talking with her, I can't talk to my father about anything. I try, believe me I try, but in the end it never works and I'm back to the beginning trying all over again. I'm stubborn and I fight back. That's the way I am, and if you tell me to me quiet I'll just get louder. I guess I am feeling a little down about expectations. My cat, Scout is missing, and people are just drifting away. I don't know why I allow them to return when they just drift away and ignore me, or I do the same. I guess there is no point. If you can live without a person for a month, then you can live without them forever. That's the way I feel. & WITHOUT, meaning no talking or even existing to them. I guess I am content with just being me, and whoever wants to be with me, hop on board, other than that I can't waste my time begging for their attention. I think I'd rather die then feel that way again. I feel like I always have to please people, well I'm done! It's not that easy, but I'm going to try to just be happy, and include people, but not to the point where I am bleeding to get their attention. Well that's enough selfishness for one night.

-Sam

The Month of Love

Oh boy am I grateful to get to look forward to such a wonderful vacation coming so soon I am going crazy for this month to go by! March will be here before I know it, I guess, but I can't wait any long! I am busy busy busy! Rehearsal, homework, and fitting it shoots as much as possible! I haven't been doing a whole lot other than rehearsal, eat, sleep and work. I haven't had a whole lot of me time, and I'm thrilled that I will be getting just that, along with family and friends in March. Las Vegas and California--> the two places I can go over and over again and never get bored. I'd choose Vegas and Cali over the North any day! I have barely seen my friends, but the other day my best friend and I went to see When in Rome and it was hilarious :] I recommend it, if you're looking for a laugh!