Thunder

Today would have been the perfect day to take pictures. I would have loved to capture a glimpse of lightning. The thunder roared and made me believe I had honestly popped my car tire while parking today. Haha. Well it was an easy day, as will be tomorrow, and I start work Monday so wish me luck. I can't wait to get paid so I can take my long awaited trip to Utah State University campus :) It was tempting to stop there while I was there last week. I won't let it go by next time. Haha.

Until next time...

College

This past week has been quite the eye opener. I am pleased to say that I am attending college for the Summer of 2011. I am Idaho State and I'm loving it. The freedom is so exciting. It's nice to set boundaries for myself and be responsible for me. I am taking a Philosophy class as well as a Psychology class. Both are very broad topics to cover in only 4-8 weeks, but I'm taking all I can in for the next couple of weeks. I also got a job working at Convergys, so I will finally be making some real money I can save for college. I am going to Utah State University in the fall of 2011 and I couldn't be happier. It's my next chapter in life and I can't wait to get started with a full time schedule. I've got family and friends down in Logan, so I don't doubt that I will be a stranger in a strange land. Haha. My dad lives in Washington state right now and since I've already been out of his house for over a year, I'm ready for this next big step. I'm going to try to blog, but as you see it's going to be quite full, my schedule.
I was able to go to Logan, Utah this last weekend to visit with family that I hadn't seen for what seemed like forever. I finally got to meet some of my cousins and see my uncles and aunts along with my Great Grandma Lil. It's been sooooo long and it can't ever be THAT long again. I just realized how much I have missed them and how much their presence in my life means to me.
I was able to take a moment to think of my mother and how much I love her. She is quite the little angel in my life and I'm lucky enough to know an angel. I love you mom.

Until later....

The Survivor

I never thought the survivor would break in front of me
Her heart beat spoke ever so softly
This day never crossed my mind, I believed endless days were ahead
Her life stories unravel at the edge of her bed
I question if I can turn the clock back and end this nightmare
But maybe it's a sign to help me prepare
We don't have every day to ourselves, I'm afraid it's true
We must share and come together, especially when we're blue
I'd become your source of survival, if I knew you'd come back
Forgiveness, gratitude, selfless attitude is something I lack
Before I spent a day in your shoes
There are not enough days to rid our lives of these blues
I might take some time to appreciate
I long to remember your face, to captivate
Encourage me to live again, I'm stubborn without you too
Maybe second chances weren't meant for me and you

Living on the moon

Living on the moon
I am just minutes from the womb
I started so eagerly
I began ever so meagerly
I don’t remember a single word
I question if I belong to this herd

Living on the moon
You’d think I’d have enough room
Reaching for the stars
I somehow landed on mars
Bounced around for an hour
The atmosphere is a tad sour

Living on the moon
You’d think I’d need a broom
To sweep away the crusted bits
I float above the shallow pits
In emptiness I cower
Longing for a shower

Living on the moon
You’d think I’d hear a boom!
Reckless and swerving
I rotate with slight curving
I’m only miles from you
But I know just what to do

Lava on Sunday

Today the weather, of course, took a few turns. It's Idaho. It rained, it poured, it snowed and did I mention it rained? What a beautiful day to go to Lava Hot Springs. The perfection of it all was that the rain would drop into the hot pools and splash my face. Such a good feeling to be with the best kind of friends and family. Thanks for the enjoyable day. Regardless of religious rules to not swim on Sundays, I completely disagree. It's so relaxing and you are free. To think of simple things like water that God created is enough to remember him. I enjoyed my day. Thanks a bunch guys!

Inches to Miles (Inspirational Letter)

Dear friend,
I’m not going to lie to you, because that’s not something I can easily do. I won’t tell you life is simple and kind, because the truth is I’d only make you blind. The moment I met you I knew you were meant for wondrous places. Nothing can stop you including the judgmental faces. I want you to know I’ve never given up on you, because that’s not something I can easily do.

You’re not always going to have me by your side. I hope you know when to draw the line. Jump off cliffs, stand up for yourself, take turns, be blunt, and enjoy the ride. This world will surprise you and the only thing certain is change. You were born to see the best part of the world come to life. You are meant to be an example with not only your worlds but your actions; no matter how tough the classes with all the vocabulary and fractions, you’re not done yet so don’t stop here.

My friend, mistakes have your name written all over them, but that’s okay. You’re courageous enough to learn from them. If only it were as easy to jump or crawl under your trials, but to be honest you must face them head on before they change from inches to miles. You will meet people you adore, and with some you’d rather just close the door. This part of life may be a blessing in disguise and yet another surprise. My friend, I’d love to hold your hand today, but I know you’re already on your way. You may lose this battle, but I’m certain this is your war to win. If you find yourself crying please know it’s not a crime. We all fall down sometimes.

My friend, the beauty of it all is you have the strength inside to find the light. You’ll make the decision to get up and fight. Perfection is not in the books for you, my friend, but that’s not what’s going to get you through in the end. Your bold personality and endless curiosity will take you on paths of unknown. You’ll be thankful when you see how much you’ve conquered and grown. Regardless of the struggles you are handed, I know you will handle them accordingly. You’ve got a talent; therefore, you must protect it ever so cautiously.

People will want to bring you down. It’s only natural to want to frown. I see a sparkle in your eye though, and with great purpose you’ll find another tomorrow. You’re only just beginning your journey. Take this letter as your road map and know I love you, because that is something I can easily do.

Winter Sickness

It's almost as if I've been sick for a month now. The weather has been nice up until today. It started to rain and snow and I'm afraid it's going to stick. I've been coughing with a runny nose and it's endless. Just your usual flu/cold thing, but it's ongoing. It sucks. I've missed some school, but it's not a whole lot to miss. All I have is government and it's nothing I can't read from my text book. I do miss school though and feeling 100% better with all the energy. I haven't been myself lately and so I'm hoping tomorrow will be different and I'll get back to my routine. I still hope I can make my trip to Logan, if no than it will have to be in December. Well, adios for now.

USU Campus Tour

It's set. November 19th. I'm going down to Logan, Utah. I'm pumped! My friends and I are going to check out the campus. It's not my first time, but it's my first time that I will actually remember --> & I'm not going there as the granddaughter of an employee this time, but as a curious incoming freshman ;) It's exciting and I shall have tons of fun along with friends. Money saving time, haha! I'll be taking family portraits here soon so I'm sure I'll have enough to get there and back. I wanted to do it before the Thanksgiving Break just so that I can know for sure if it's the school for me. It's so beautiful there and I want nothing more than to go there. I have a few friends that attend USU, but that's not why I would go there. It's far enough away from home that I can handle it, but not too far that I will freak out. Haha.

Well that's about it for now!

The Perks of Blogging

You can get the word out to those far and near from you who you don't always talk with but would still like them to know what's going on.
You can get everything out on the table with all the trials and live changing events and call it journalism.


It's been a wonderful awful fabulous irritating last few months. I NEED to blog to get it out. I'm really a positive person around friends and whatnot--> but whenever the word FAMILY enters my mind things go up hill and I can't find a fence to jump over or bridge to quietly cross, instead I must endure the nightmare that occurs around them. Ok, so it's not THAT bad, but it isn't too pleasant either.

I've been going to counseling and boy has that been the savior of my sanity.

I'm a photographer. I'm figuring out my future business but right now I'm pretty content with what I've been doing.

I want to be an Aggie. Utah State is my home. Logan, Utah is beautiful and I can't wait to move there (hopefully!!!) That's my goal as of now! I want to get the 100 mile radius scholarship, but either way I'm heading that direction for college with ever fiber of my being if I can help it. It's my only way out! Summer school at ISU then off to Utah State!

I have tons to be thankful for. I don't know if I'm getting into the holiday spirit or if opportunity has arose but either way I'm excited to begin my future today.

Please remind me to blog. It's difficult finding time out of my oh so busy senior year (NOT) but I'll do my best.

THE END .

You wouldn't believe you if I told you myself.

In the last couple of months I've moved into a new place --> watched my dad go to and from S. Africa--> became a live-in-nanny and started getting really into this photography thing. Check out my website www.spaphotographs.com It's legit :) I'm the worst blogger on earth.

Selfish Time of Year

This time of year I am either trying to ignore a feeling in my gut or bursting every five minutes into tears. This year, I've done a little bit of both. I'm always talking about myself. Inside and outside. ME, ME, ME. I don't like it, but it's all bottling up about this time, and I've got to let it out sometime, so I guess I fall back on the excuse that the 20th of February is the anniversary of my mother's death. It will be five years this year and it feels almost a lifetime a way. I guess I wouldn't call it an "Anniversary" that's a more positive thinking. This isn't really positive, but I can't make it all negative. I have to remember her and do what she would do today.I think about how she would be 41 in April and I almost cry. She was so young when she died. I miss her a lot. I miss talking with her, I can't talk to my father about anything. I try, believe me I try, but in the end it never works and I'm back to the beginning trying all over again. I'm stubborn and I fight back. That's the way I am, and if you tell me to me quiet I'll just get louder. I guess I am feeling a little down about expectations. My cat, Scout is missing, and people are just drifting away. I don't know why I allow them to return when they just drift away and ignore me, or I do the same. I guess there is no point. If you can live without a person for a month, then you can live without them forever. That's the way I feel. & WITHOUT, meaning no talking or even existing to them. I guess I am content with just being me, and whoever wants to be with me, hop on board, other than that I can't waste my time begging for their attention. I think I'd rather die then feel that way again. I feel like I always have to please people, well I'm done! It's not that easy, but I'm going to try to just be happy, and include people, but not to the point where I am bleeding to get their attention. Well that's enough selfishness for one night.

-Sam

The Month of Love

Oh boy am I grateful to get to look forward to such a wonderful vacation coming so soon I am going crazy for this month to go by! March will be here before I know it, I guess, but I can't wait any long! I am busy busy busy! Rehearsal, homework, and fitting it shoots as much as possible! I haven't been doing a whole lot other than rehearsal, eat, sleep and work. I haven't had a whole lot of me time, and I'm thrilled that I will be getting just that, along with family and friends in March. Las Vegas and California--> the two places I can go over and over again and never get bored. I'd choose Vegas and Cali over the North any day! I have barely seen my friends, but the other day my best friend and I went to see When in Rome and it was hilarious :] I recommend it, if you're looking for a laugh!

Fantastic Future!

January is almost over! I haven't done any new shoots lately! I have been so busy. I have a few family, personal portraits, and a possible wedding shoot in the future. I am excited. I also have a few set senior portraits for the graduates of 2011 on my calendar! I am thrilled to see people enjoying my portraits. I am going to Las Vegas, Nevada and Long Beach, California for spring break, not to mention Disneyland :) I will hopefully be staying right on the beach where I plan to take tons of photos and I am searching for a new fabulous camera that I have in mind :) It's exciting and I am also going to be a "Live-in-Nanny" starting mid-March. I can't wait, and I'm sure I'll have tons of photos of the girls. They are changing quickly and I enjoy spending time with them. I have my last final year at Upward Bound this summer, although I hope to be a bridge student *fingers crossed* I am thrilled to know I get to go to Africa in August! :) A crap-load of pictures will be coming from that adventure!!!! I am taking my cousin's senior portraits in March and hopefully I can take my other cousins portraits with her and her new baby that is due in February! I am excited for the challenges to come and I hope time will fly, but I too can enjoy my days. :)

I'd love to take portraits whenever and however!
Give me a call/e-mail.

Africa in August

Hello everyone.
I am excited to say that I will be taking at trip to The Safari Lands of Africa. It is a joy to share this with you. I will be bringing back many portraits of all the people and creatures that come along my path as I discover the wonders of Africa. My father will be staying in Africa starting in March of 2010 and I will be a live in Nanny in my little old town of Pocatello, Idaho. I will still be available for photos, don't worry :) But I will be traveling in August not only to Africa but the United States as well. I'd love to discover more of the South part of the US. I haven't traveled any further than New Mexico. I'd love to go to Georgia and Tennessee. I can't wait for March to go to California for Spring Break; including Disneyland :) I am excited for this summer and my last "official" year with Upward Bound as a High School student. I hope to be a Bridge Student "College Student" the following Summer, but it all depends on if whether or not I am selected to be apart of that. I have done pretty well, so I am confident I will be on their list :)
Rehearsals for the musical this years seem slow, only because I am not doing it every night like I did freshman year, but it gives me more time to focus on school work and not get too behind. I am babysitting for Janae on Tuesdays and will be until March 9th. I will be moving in with her, her husband, and two daughters to be A-Live-In-Nanny until August after Spring Break. I am excited and I hope it will be a learning experience. Hope January is going well for all of you, and I hope to keep up on my Calendar :) I've decided since I will be traveling a lot, that this Calendar doesn't have to be just an Idaho Calendar, but whatever I come across. I hope I can accomplish this. Wish me luck and I hope to blog later.

-Samantha Paige Averett

Merry Christmas Eve.

Hello everyone,
I truly hope you have a wonderful holiday season. This new year is a fresh clean slate. Take it all in and cherish the moments you are given. I know I want to start fresh and enjoy this new year. :) I am in the musical which will be lovely, and I will experiencing all kinds of new fun!
Enjoy waiting up for Santa tonight! Cookies and milk, good old traditions!

-sam

Heaven was needing an Angel

I love the way you smile at me
I love the way you'll always be
I love it when we work all day
& come to a conclusion that we'll be okay

I love it when at night you pray
That miracles will surround our coming day
I love it when you think of others
& say "They're no different then us" they all have mothers

I've learned a few things here and there
Like how to love, forgive and share
When I surround myself with you
Being kind is all I want to do

I miss your voice when you're not around
Sometimes I call your phone, only to hear your sound.
It's amazing just to be around
Let alone being able to all year 'round :)

Let's have an awesome new year
Spread the laughter, no fear
I'm missing you already, come home soon
I'll keep playing that silly tune :)

Cali for Christmas

I am so excited! I am pretty sure I am going to California for Christmas! It will be the best gift ever! Warm and so wonderful! I will have many pictures I am sure. I went over Spring Break but this will be so different. Leaving the cold behind for the warm and beautiful beach of San Diego! I want to go to Point Loma again, right by the beach where I performed for Choir Tour! It's fabulous! What are you guys doing for Christmas? I just can't do tradition right now. Never really even had a tradition anyway! There is so much snow! I hate the cold!

-sam

Damn

Damn the people that don't
& damn the people that do
There is so much going on.
I don't know what to do.

My father once said
Run and find that inner strength
Damn the people that don't
& damn the people that do
Before you.

Open your heart and see that pain
Dream of a world without hate
Damn the people that don't
& damn the people that do,
Before you.

& even when the darkest shadow over powers
& even when you heart has shattered.
Fly again
& Damn the people that don't
& damn the people that do
& damn the people that don't
& damn the people that do.
Oh, before you.

Falling apart ain't so hard to do.
But at least you'll learn something to.
& damn the people that don't
& damn the people that do.
Before you.

New Inspiration: To add to the other unfinished projects.

If you know. I write. All the time. Some I post, some I publish, and some are still inside my head yet to come. Right now I am working on ALISON. I was working on RUNNING STILL, but got lost in this new inspiration, ALISON. It's good. I'll post more about it later.

I've been acting this one out for years :)


Book:
Alison

Fake

You're fake to me.
Where is the reality?
In your eyes.
Your smile is yet another surprise.

I glance your way.
Hoping it will different today.
This spark cannot begin.
Expectations will fail again.

You give me hope,
Just to watch me fall.
You give me wings,
Just to beg for your call.

We'll laugh on your terms.
The sun still comes and burns.
The day is no different from the night.
I'll watch you take your flight.

Sometimes it's better when you're gone.
I'm fine, until I start to sit and watch for you on the lawn.
You've made me this weak.
You've made me this bleak.

I am no daughter.
You are no father.