Hello everyone,
I am working on my Summer Project.
I had a Spring Project that I already submitted. I have some samples up on my photography page.
Check it out if you have some time.
This summer I've really tried to focus on portraits and candid shots of people (:
It's been fun, but I have got a few nature ones & objects.
I'm enjoying my summer and UB is already over.
Well, I won't be very busy for very long.
My short summer is coming (=
haha (: School has been fun, but it's almost over and starting again.
JUNIOR YEAR here I come.
I'm excited for life (=
I've been staying up late and waking up early. Sleep isn't my best friend right now.
I've been working on the edge and my eyes are worn.
Hopefully it's all worth it in the end; can't wait for a break.
Thank God for this weather we are so blessed with (=
Adios!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Building a future
Hello fellow bloggers and myspace, facebook friends.
I am enjoying my summer and Upward Bound is on a whole new level this year. I honestly love it even more. It's sad to see people leave an get kicked out because they couldn't handle it, but I'm just starting to build my future. Summer has been hot, but not as hot as U of U in mid July. I like living in little old Pocatello, Idaho. I've realized this over the last year. It's the only place I can call home. Every time I visit my old homes and want to gag. The memories weren't all bad. When they were good, they were good; but when they were bad they were horrible and I'd really like to not relive them. I love Pocatello, because I've found a home in it. I know I will visit it when I get all famous. Haha (: No, but really. I've been thinking about what I really want to do. I always think about making HUGE movies and all that, and truthfully, that's what I want; but I also love editing articles and find joy in journalism as well. I'm headed for my Master's degree in TV and Film, but I want more than that, really. So far no one has put me down about my big dreams, but I have a feeling that someone will. Whether from jealousy or lack of confidence, I know it's coming. I wont stop there, because I'll rise above. I've been missing dog lately and my mother of course, But they are my inspiration to be better. It feels good to blog and let it all out. I feel a little lost but I know people who will lift me up, thank god for that. I haven't been keeping up with my book lately. Which reminds me that I need to take a look at that. Alright well until next time, enjoy your summer and check out my photography blog, myspace and facebook whenever for more (:
-Sam
I am enjoying my summer and Upward Bound is on a whole new level this year. I honestly love it even more. It's sad to see people leave an get kicked out because they couldn't handle it, but I'm just starting to build my future. Summer has been hot, but not as hot as U of U in mid July. I like living in little old Pocatello, Idaho. I've realized this over the last year. It's the only place I can call home. Every time I visit my old homes and want to gag. The memories weren't all bad. When they were good, they were good; but when they were bad they were horrible and I'd really like to not relive them. I love Pocatello, because I've found a home in it. I know I will visit it when I get all famous. Haha (: No, but really. I've been thinking about what I really want to do. I always think about making HUGE movies and all that, and truthfully, that's what I want; but I also love editing articles and find joy in journalism as well. I'm headed for my Master's degree in TV and Film, but I want more than that, really. So far no one has put me down about my big dreams, but I have a feeling that someone will. Whether from jealousy or lack of confidence, I know it's coming. I wont stop there, because I'll rise above. I've been missing dog lately and my mother of course, But they are my inspiration to be better. It feels good to blog and let it all out. I feel a little lost but I know people who will lift me up, thank god for that. I haven't been keeping up with my book lately. Which reminds me that I need to take a look at that. Alright well until next time, enjoy your summer and check out my photography blog, myspace and facebook whenever for more (:
-Sam
Saturday, July 11, 2009
In My Deepest Despair
I have been inspired by some of the most outstanding people. I have been so privileged to meet most of them in the first two years of my high school. Some have come, and some are gone. I won't mention names, but maybe it might just be obvious. I appreciate their patience and wonderful faith in me. I thank them. I have also witnessed some pretty deep stuff throughout my years as well and I try not to remember them but it's the hardest damn thing I've ever had to do. This is for my inspiration and for the people who will never know what kind of person I am meant to be. It's their loss, like my father says. (thanks Aubrey for the idea)
-Never in my life have I met a person like you. The moments we shared never escaped without a laugh or a cry. Sometimes I would watch you without knowing it, just to see if you had ever treated someone else like me. I guess I was pretty special to you. I admit the mistakes I've made and I'm truly sorry for the loss of our connection. We still talk, and I'm glad for that. If there is nothing else, I am glad for that.
-Personality gets me every time because I've been fooled by your looks once before.
-There are plenty of shadows in far away lands but whenever I'm beside you the sun shines all day. And the warmth isn't a burning hot, but yet a comfort I don't want to lose.
-I don't know what you see in me or what keeps you coming back for more, but I promise I won't change the way I feel for you.
-It's awkward all of the time. I can try and reply all I want, but the awkwardness will still reside.
-I don't know the definition for fate, but I feel wrapped up in it either way.
-I feel like I've been fighting much longer than I've actually been loving. I wish for many things, but never have I wished to stop fighting for you.
-You said how much you wanted me to be a part of you life. You said that even under the circumstances you were still overwhelming overjoyed to have me here with you. To this day I don't know if those words were just words or actual thoughts you intended to keep. I want five minutes of your time but even five minutes of your time is too much time for you. It seems that I expect you to say "How high?" when I say " Jump!" This is not the case though and I'm sorry for asking you to live up to your words. Words are only words, I've learned though you.
-We don't even remember why we're fighting and yet it's endless and a part of us now. It's the feeling of not wanting to go back because we know it's a pattern that won't end.
-You're leaving now and you woke me up crying because you're afraid to leave. I say just how much you're going to regret saying that, but you say how much you're going to miss out and I say how much I'm going to miss out. I guess we're more alike than we allow ourselves to believe.
-Are we close to perfection or that furthermost away? At this point I cannot tell the difference because good and evil have combined and lost their goal in life.
-Je t'aime. Je mis de la manière dont elle a été.
- We better do something before there is nothing we can do.
- I lost you in a moment's time. When I was far off away and I had no idea. I had no clue. I'm so sorry. I know you must have been searching for me. You didn't know any better. You were the best friend a girl could have. I could tell you anything. One day I'll make it up to you for all the things I never did for you. When I had the chance to ,I never did. But I promise I will make it up to you. Just wait and see. Just wait.
- When I'm the hot shot I want to be, you'll be sitting on your couch wishing you would have got off of it and called me up. Called me randomly and honestly, caringly. You would have spoke the words that made up for all the lost time. You would have drove the simple 45 miles to get to me. You would have, but you never did. You can talk about it whenever you please, but don't expect me to thank you at the Grammy's.
-Have I told you I ache for you. I ache inside and outside. I look terrible and weak. You never took the time to see that in me. You took a fake smile as some kind of truth. When anyone stranger could see, I wasn't likely to be, happy.
-I don't believe I've ever seen a face like yours. So true, simply wonderful, questionable and yet I know most everything about you. You couldn't lie if you wanted to. Thank you for the honest truth.
- We've lost some pretty amazing musicians that have changed the world and formed the music we listen to today, but we still have some pretty amazing musicians that are just getting started.
- Silence is all I wanted, but in the thick of it I couldn't help searching for your voice.
-I think I'll go far, much further than I had ever imagined, thanks to you.
-You couldn't have held me back even if you used steel. Because my dreams can break anything you put up to block them with.
- You've started this war, so you better go and get your armor.
-I miss almost everything about you execpt the part that makes me hate you.
- I'm astonished with what you thought you could use against me, knowing it would never work because I've got a back up plan that you never thought of.
-I can write a love song for you in my sleep to prove just how much I love you. I never forget to cherrish the moments I have with you because I've lost too many to beleive I'll have anymore time with you than the rest.
-This one is for you : I'd be lying if I said I trusted in you.
-I'll back off for a while, but don't think this will be a regular routine after all you've done for me. You've knocked down my door sevral times and you've never taken "NO" for any answer. So don't thinkg this will be a regular routine.
-I'd ask why you didn't come today, but I think I already know why.
-You're under my skin and in my very soul. How you got there; i'll never know.
-Isn't it strange how the world can change, but in all the wrong ways.
-You two were so close, but after you let society tear you apart; you were nothing but two strangers.
- I could write a million words saying it will never work, or I could just walk away. How would you prefer it, because either way I'll still lose you.
-Lionel Richie says : "Party like there is nothing left to give", but before you can do that you must give, so what are you waiting for. I havn't seen that side of you yet.
-We have got to be alive. We cannot live in the depths of our own deaths. Someone put us here for a reason, so don't waste a second of it.
-Say your sorry once, I'll think about forgiving you. Say your sorry twice and you might never get a chance for me to consider forgivness.
-If you're going through some things in your life, just know it's gonna be alright :Lionel Richie.
-In Our Darkest Hour, In My Deepest Despair, Will You Still Care?, Will You Be There?, In My Trials, And My Tripulations, Through Our Doubts, And Frustrations, In My Violence, In My Turbulence, Through My Fear ,And My Confessions ,In My Anguish And My Pain ,Through My Joy And My Sorrow, In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow ,I'll Never Let You Part , For You're Always In My Heart : Michael Jackson
- Why is it the smallest things that tear us down? Just wait a minute and see how hard it can get without me; without you.
-Insane? Maybe, Crazy? Of course, either way you'll never know, because you never took the time
- I had a good time today, and I can't wait for more. Thank you.
-Never in my life have I met a person like you. The moments we shared never escaped without a laugh or a cry. Sometimes I would watch you without knowing it, just to see if you had ever treated someone else like me. I guess I was pretty special to you. I admit the mistakes I've made and I'm truly sorry for the loss of our connection. We still talk, and I'm glad for that. If there is nothing else, I am glad for that.
-Personality gets me every time because I've been fooled by your looks once before.
-There are plenty of shadows in far away lands but whenever I'm beside you the sun shines all day. And the warmth isn't a burning hot, but yet a comfort I don't want to lose.
-I don't know what you see in me or what keeps you coming back for more, but I promise I won't change the way I feel for you.
-It's awkward all of the time. I can try and reply all I want, but the awkwardness will still reside.
-I don't know the definition for fate, but I feel wrapped up in it either way.
-I feel like I've been fighting much longer than I've actually been loving. I wish for many things, but never have I wished to stop fighting for you.
-You said how much you wanted me to be a part of you life. You said that even under the circumstances you were still overwhelming overjoyed to have me here with you. To this day I don't know if those words were just words or actual thoughts you intended to keep. I want five minutes of your time but even five minutes of your time is too much time for you. It seems that I expect you to say "How high?" when I say " Jump!" This is not the case though and I'm sorry for asking you to live up to your words. Words are only words, I've learned though you.
-We don't even remember why we're fighting and yet it's endless and a part of us now. It's the feeling of not wanting to go back because we know it's a pattern that won't end.
-You're leaving now and you woke me up crying because you're afraid to leave. I say just how much you're going to regret saying that, but you say how much you're going to miss out and I say how much I'm going to miss out. I guess we're more alike than we allow ourselves to believe.
-Are we close to perfection or that furthermost away? At this point I cannot tell the difference because good and evil have combined and lost their goal in life.
-Je t'aime. Je mis de la manière dont elle a été.
- We better do something before there is nothing we can do.
- I lost you in a moment's time. When I was far off away and I had no idea. I had no clue. I'm so sorry. I know you must have been searching for me. You didn't know any better. You were the best friend a girl could have. I could tell you anything. One day I'll make it up to you for all the things I never did for you. When I had the chance to ,I never did. But I promise I will make it up to you. Just wait and see. Just wait.
- When I'm the hot shot I want to be, you'll be sitting on your couch wishing you would have got off of it and called me up. Called me randomly and honestly, caringly. You would have spoke the words that made up for all the lost time. You would have drove the simple 45 miles to get to me. You would have, but you never did. You can talk about it whenever you please, but don't expect me to thank you at the Grammy's.
-Have I told you I ache for you. I ache inside and outside. I look terrible and weak. You never took the time to see that in me. You took a fake smile as some kind of truth. When anyone stranger could see, I wasn't likely to be, happy.
-I don't believe I've ever seen a face like yours. So true, simply wonderful, questionable and yet I know most everything about you. You couldn't lie if you wanted to. Thank you for the honest truth.
- We've lost some pretty amazing musicians that have changed the world and formed the music we listen to today, but we still have some pretty amazing musicians that are just getting started.
- Silence is all I wanted, but in the thick of it I couldn't help searching for your voice.
-I think I'll go far, much further than I had ever imagined, thanks to you.
-You couldn't have held me back even if you used steel. Because my dreams can break anything you put up to block them with.
- You've started this war, so you better go and get your armor.
-I miss almost everything about you execpt the part that makes me hate you.
- I'm astonished with what you thought you could use against me, knowing it would never work because I've got a back up plan that you never thought of.
-I can write a love song for you in my sleep to prove just how much I love you. I never forget to cherrish the moments I have with you because I've lost too many to beleive I'll have anymore time with you than the rest.
-This one is for you : I'd be lying if I said I trusted in you.
-I'll back off for a while, but don't think this will be a regular routine after all you've done for me. You've knocked down my door sevral times and you've never taken "NO" for any answer. So don't thinkg this will be a regular routine.
-I'd ask why you didn't come today, but I think I already know why.
-You're under my skin and in my very soul. How you got there; i'll never know.
-Isn't it strange how the world can change, but in all the wrong ways.
-You two were so close, but after you let society tear you apart; you were nothing but two strangers.
- I could write a million words saying it will never work, or I could just walk away. How would you prefer it, because either way I'll still lose you.
-Lionel Richie says : "Party like there is nothing left to give", but before you can do that you must give, so what are you waiting for. I havn't seen that side of you yet.
-We have got to be alive. We cannot live in the depths of our own deaths. Someone put us here for a reason, so don't waste a second of it.
-Say your sorry once, I'll think about forgiving you. Say your sorry twice and you might never get a chance for me to consider forgivness.
-If you're going through some things in your life, just know it's gonna be alright :Lionel Richie.
-In Our Darkest Hour, In My Deepest Despair, Will You Still Care?, Will You Be There?, In My Trials, And My Tripulations, Through Our Doubts, And Frustrations, In My Violence, In My Turbulence, Through My Fear ,And My Confessions ,In My Anguish And My Pain ,Through My Joy And My Sorrow, In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow ,I'll Never Let You Part , For You're Always In My Heart : Michael Jackson
- Why is it the smallest things that tear us down? Just wait a minute and see how hard it can get without me; without you.
-Insane? Maybe, Crazy? Of course, either way you'll never know, because you never took the time
- I had a good time today, and I can't wait for more. Thank you.
Monday, June 8, 2009
All nighter-Upward Bound-Book.
Lately I have been lazying around the house and just breathing before school starts again. Wait! Don't you have like three months of break?;is probably what you are thinking right now, right? Haha. Yes my friends I have school coming up in like two days! It's Upward Bound and the best thing that has happened for me since my mother died. I've met lifetime friends and I've been able to make college a reality more so than ever! It's great. This program helps me with college and school and grades and such! I had a wonderful night the other night, though, before this year's upward bound happens again. Before I move into the dorms and I got to spend the night at my best friend's house for his birthday party. It was crazy wild! We stayed up all night! I won't forget that night. Naomi is one of my best friends and so is Coleman (: It was great! Now as Summer is here and all I got to talk to a close friend of mine from Blackfoot, Valentin. He's awesome! And he's part of Upward Bound. This Summer I'll try to blog about more of my fun with friends and school! It will be awesome now that I have a laptop to use! yay! (: I am glad I have met the friends I have and will cherrish their presence more so than ever this summer. Some friends leave and some stay. Some lose touch and some are always there. I'm glad anyways, good or bad, they've all taught me life lessons! Oh, & I'm writing a book. No exclusive yet, but I hope to get some stuff up later, maybe. Still debating. And I'd like people to read parts of it, if we are close just e-mail me at manthashray@yahoo.com If you've been with me every step of the way I'd love to hear your imput, because if you know who I am, I think you'll understand my book better (: Thanks Taylor (editor) and Julia (best friend) for the support. And Ryan (Uncle) for the interest. My book has a few titles in mind and I think I will post a plot later and ask for your opinon. More so on myspace, facebook and such but keep posted (:
Thanks friends.
-Sam.
ENJOY YOUR SUMMER
HAVE AT IT '09
Thanks friends.
-Sam.
ENJOY YOUR SUMMER
HAVE AT IT '09
Monday, May 11, 2009
Day Date/Prom 2009
Hey guys,
Haven't blogged with any good detail lately so I thought I'd talk to you today. It's getting warmer and I just finished taking my last Exam, A.P Biology to be exact. There are more finals but it feels good to get the hard stuff out of the way, even if I'm getting a B in that class! haha! So basically I went to prom this year. It was awesome and according to my friend Mason, I owned the floor :) It was tons of fun and I had a blast with my date and best friends all around me. I went with most of my AP Biology friends! It was super exciting! It was worth everything I had to do. I had a little bake sale and made 250 dollars to pay for my dress and the limo! So much fun! So here are some pictures to go along with all the fun! School is almost out so check out my phototgraphy blog, because i've been taking lots o' pics!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Fun with cousins
I don't often get to see my cousin but when I do,
I tend to have too much fun!
I love these guys and I know that when I get my license I will visit them time after time (=
I didn't get any pics with the boys, they were mostly running around.
But Rachel, Ashley and I got some cute ones (=
I had so much fun, enjoy!
I tend to have too much fun!
I love these guys and I know that when I get my license I will visit them time after time (=
I didn't get any pics with the boys, they were mostly running around.
But Rachel, Ashley and I got some cute ones (=
I had so much fun, enjoy!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
In Loving Memory of Gus
Nephi Agustus Valjean
June 26th,2000 to March 27th, 2009
Dear Gus,
You may not know just how much you meant to me. You were my world, my everything. I never meant for us to part this way. A lonely night, me so very far away. You searched with your curious nose and determination to know just where we'd go. I wonder what you felt, the moment you heart began to melt. I'm sorry little friend, for I was gone. I wish I might have prevented such a tragedy if only I had not been so selfish just to think of me. I thought of you often, and always will. You brought me joy you brought me thrill. Tears I cried in front of you and words I spoke you only knew. Such a wonderful companion and the definition of a loyal best friend. I'll write your story out loud some day, and maybe then I will repay. All the things I would say, but never took the time of day. I'll honor every second you took to say hello with your big brown eyes and unconditional love that spread farther than most. All the times you saved my life and God has now reminded me of all those little things. The blessings have come clear and my life has become that much more important just looking at your past. Thank you Gus. Thank you. For you have saved my life and for that I will live for you now as you once did for me. You've showed me love like no one else can. Thank you. Thank you, my loyal friend.
You may not know just how much you meant to me. You were my world, my everything. I never meant for us to part this way. A lonely night, me so very far away. You searched with your curious nose and determination to know just where we'd go. I wonder what you felt, the moment you heart began to melt. I'm sorry little friend, for I was gone. I wish I might have prevented such a tragedy if only I had not been so selfish just to think of me. I thought of you often, and always will. You brought me joy you brought me thrill. Tears I cried in front of you and words I spoke you only knew. Such a wonderful companion and the definition of a loyal best friend. I'll write your story out loud some day, and maybe then I will repay. All the things I would say, but never took the time of day. I'll honor every second you took to say hello with your big brown eyes and unconditional love that spread farther than most. All the times you saved my life and God has now reminded me of all those little things. The blessings have come clear and my life has become that much more important just looking at your past. Thank you Gus. Thank you. For you have saved my life and for that I will live for you now as you once did for me. You've showed me love like no one else can. Thank you. Thank you, my loyal friend.
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