Steven is gone

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im gonna truly miss him & his talent.

i almost cried.

I saved it for now.


i am crying, seriously & for a perfectly good reason.

he's the kind of guy who says hi in the hallways at school
or takes the time to talk to you.

he's brilliant & one of the few good guys out there.


i wish him luck in Minnesota & i am trying to remember how hard it is to move to a new place. he's gonna do fine.



=]

Things Aren't Always Set In Stone

That's for sure^. Boy has this week flown by with all the chaotic things I have miraculously accomplished; I am still amazed. But don't think to question it's remotely close to finishing with a standing ovation. I still have a ways to go but this week has been one of my worst weeks; meaning chaotic. It's been fun and satisfying, mainly. I have had a few weak moments & being sick doesn't help the situation but I am confident that I shall finish this week with somewhat of a sign of relief noted close by. I finished and passed my written drivers test with flying colors. It was long but rewarding to know that I know more than what I started out with. I mean, I thought I knew most everything about driving as I began, because watching parents throughout my years = much help and made me confident enough to get behind the wheel. I've always wanted too but I never knew how much I'd learn, seriously. It's been a long two months, but worth it since I will be driving the rest of my life.
This last week I've realized just how much plans don't go through most of the times. That's why we as humans come up with "Plan B" It's quite helpful actually and I tend to use it more than needed. I have my choir concert tonight at 7:30 PM and I am excited for my grandmother's and aunt<--(maybe), to attend. I have worked hard as an individual and enjoy singing very much. I'd rather act than sing but I find that I fit in both & will keep singing until my voice fades on me. (: I hope that you come if you find choir concerts enjoyable and such. I also preformed my piece today with Toni & the class loved it. I feel like I could have put more effort into the writing part and not procrastinated as much, but we seemed to pull it off quite nicely. Christmas Break couldn't come any faster if I pushed it along myself. I will have so much relief once it's finally here. This Sunday is my cousin, Jared's, birthday and he is turning two (: I am going to eat some cake and ice cream and play with him and then prepare for another long week of school until break! I have two articles due soon so I must be on my way with the finishing touches of my rough draft. I am such a perfectionist. Taylor & I discussed a few topics today in A.P Bio and none consisted of Biology (= I love that kid. Well I am going to do what I must & I will hopefully blog some more once my schedule settles down.

-SAM

Beautiful Things Never Last

Where the leaves may turn colors
& the snow may fall
I'll be there to witness it all
Where the children cry
& the people turn to a lie
I'll understand; I'll know why
Where God isn't present
& we give up on him
I'll stand up, I'll question them
Where our feet feel numb
& we've had enough
I'll be there to push us on up
Where people waste their chances
& living for today isn't their motto
I'll stand up, I'll sing staccato
Where beautiful things never last
& people dread the future & live in the past
I'll be there, whether bounded, whether vast

On & Off.

I have been sick on and off lately. As most of you know I was in the hospital about two months ago from an infection and I had to get that yucky ivy in my vain. Ew. It didn't hurt but looked gross with all the blood. I missed a day of drivers ed that day because I was stuck in the hospital with my dad and doctor. I am much better now, but I was also dehydrated and that sucked a lot. Since i missed drivers ed I have to make it up tomorrow along with my final test! Until 8 PM tomorrow night.Yuck! I hate being sick because I miss out on the best things in life. Like going to school and accomplishing the things on "My List" (: It's snowing right now. I am excited for that & since I am home & have rested long enough, I really think I will put up my Christmas tree. Being sick sucks! Honestly, I would do anything for my body to feel better again. Yuck. Any advice on what to do. My mom was always the one to take care of me when I was sick. But now that she's gone, My dad just works a lot and tells me to take Tylenol and sleep. It works but it doesn't make my mind feel any better. So seriously, any advice, feel free to add some? Or let me know on myspace like most of you reply on. Thanks a tons!
-xo
SAM

Friends.

Sometimes the people in your lives that surround you are easily taken for granted. I kind of do this sometimes. But I just want my friends to know how much they mean to me & how much I will never purposefully take them for granted. They mean the world to me=]
Without friendship there is no determination or motivation for a new and brighter day. Thanks guys & I love you =]
-Samantha Paige.

Street Lights

This seems more like moments than memories
I can't guarantee that I will remember what took place today
But I know that this one moment defines my destination
The spotlight could actually be the street lights
The street in my runway
& my hope and all the tears I've cried can be my inspiration
Without those I can credit,
Who do I thank, where is my faith?
Happiness isn't just my awakening challenge
It's my timeliness and determination
One day someone will come
That someone will change my life
But till' then,
I can't just wait around for that one day to come
For the street lights dim
& my chances run thin
And suddenly there's no time to win
Make these street lights shine with meaning

Drivers Education

For everyone and anyone who knows I have been taking classes for drivers ed since mid September, I am here to tell you now that I am one class away from finishing and getting my permit. It's exciting! Finally...I can driver around, although I must be with someone over 21 years of age, I can still drive. I am not completely thrilled because I still can't drive alone legally but I am thankful that I am close to being one more step to freedom! Yay! Seriously, I have had to beg for rides from my family members who do drive and usually turn to friends siblings, their parents, or the bus for transportation. Now that's not such a big deal but life would be and will be easier once I get my license and car! I am fortunate enough to have taken the class at such a young age, but I feel behind because most kids in my grade have their license and a few freshman as well. But because of my college experience over the summer and taking classes I just didn't have time to take the class. But I am done now so no worries. I will have my license and night license at the same time so I won't have to wait like most of the teens in my class! Because I will be 16 1/2 when I officially get my license! Yay! I am a great driver and I know that because my dad even told me this. He is a very experienced driver and of course bias towards me but I know this anyways because my teacher has given me good grade! nothing below a B! My destination drive is approaching and so is my final! Wish me luck!