New Inspiration: To add to the other unfinished projects.

If you know. I write. All the time. Some I post, some I publish, and some are still inside my head yet to come. Right now I am working on ALISON. I was working on RUNNING STILL, but got lost in this new inspiration, ALISON. It's good. I'll post more about it later.

I've been acting this one out for years :)


Book:
Alison

Fake

You're fake to me.
Where is the reality?
In your eyes.
Your smile is yet another surprise.

I glance your way.
Hoping it will different today.
This spark cannot begin.
Expectations will fail again.

You give me hope,
Just to watch me fall.
You give me wings,
Just to beg for your call.

We'll laugh on your terms.
The sun still comes and burns.
The day is no different from the night.
I'll watch you take your flight.

Sometimes it's better when you're gone.
I'm fine, until I start to sit and watch for you on the lawn.
You've made me this weak.
You've made me this bleak.

I am no daughter.
You are no father.

Thanksgiving

The moments that add up to this very day are always exciting and are the reasons for Thanksgiving being my favorite holiday. The food, the warmth, the family and the friends. Tonight I am spending the night my dear best friend, Coleman. I plan on going to Hillcrest Haven, the nursing home, to feed Ruth again this year. It's a tradition at lunch on Thanksgiving :) After that, who knows! On Friday I have to take family pictures. I'm technically on break, but I've made an exception. On Friday at 5 I am going to Boise and staying the night until Sunday. It's a full week. I have no school until Monday :) Enjoy your holiday and be safe and warm :) Enjoy being with your family and or friends. Be grateful. Be happy!

-samantha averett.

You're Missing It

It's cold again and I do not know what to do
I need a friend, but all I really want is you, Where have you been? I haven't seen you for so long I guess you're gone
You're really gone So long ago you told me you'd never leave
What do you know. Things have changed so suddenly
Here I am. I am moving on without you

Now the years have passed us by
And I still do not know why
Before you tried You chose to quit
So where are you tonight You could make it all alright
But instead you're missing it

All the things that I have done
You're missing it. Everything I have become You're missing it.
So wave goodbye. You can never get it back
No you can't. You really can not

There'll be a day when you wish you could go back
When your mistakes will catch up with where you're at
Before you know all your chances will be gone.
They will be gone.

(jason walker)

Winter

Today, the snow has finally stayed. The tree's branches have completely appeared, with little or no leaves left at all. It's a peaceful feeling sitting next to my window with hot chocolate and a fleece blanket. I enjoy winter a lot a lot :) There is just some kind of comfort that is brought through the holiday season. People are kind and selfless. I wish it could like this all year round. Although possible, people seem to just get caught up, but that should be no excuse. I remember my last winter with my mother. There seemed to be no care in the world at all. We stayed in a Breakfast and Bed Log Cabin for a few days and that was wonderful. The snow slept soundly on the ground the footprints of undiscovered creatures would appear. The bed was soft and tall with millions of pillows at the top. The fireplace kept us warm inside while the hot tub took care of the outside. How I miss those days. I know more shall come, but until then... Happy Holidays and be safe and warm :)

She Loved Just the Same

I once knew a girl named Stacey Lorraine. We first met at a local barber shop downtown. She wore the most elegant clothes with laced shoes to match. Her dirty blond hair flew through the wind as she walked down the street. She entered the shop with such vibrant colors and a warm smile. The chill I felt earlier had disappeared and my gaze was on her now. I did not envy her, for there were no superior demands shooting through her body. She spoke softly and slowly. "I'm having a bad day and my hair looks like shit." The words came calm, and before I could change my shocked face she glanced my way. To cover up my glare I simply said, "Take a seat next to me." Without hesitation she did as I suggested. We stared at each other admiring one another's facial expressions and finally she spoke again. "You'd never guess, but I've just been thrown out of my house." Another calm sound came from her mouth again, but more seriously this time. She was right. She appeared flawless and yet her words said otherwise. I would have never guessed had I not looked behind her mask. She was blunt, and I had not yet been introduced to such a person before. Little did I know, but my life was just about to change for good.
Stacey got her hair fluffed and styled for what seemed like hours until she was satisfied. I didn't mind, because we talked and that kept my patience. We smiled and shook hands. I thought I might never see her again until she laughed, "You made me feel beautiful today. I'm gonna need that another day." Soon enough Stacey and I visited the shop once a week which rapidly turned into two times a week then quickly changed to a cup of coffee across the street on a bench. We talked. We didn't just talk about the weather, but about our lives. We were friends. And although I only knew Stacey for 6 months, I soon knew more about her than some of those that had known her all of her life. I listened. She told me, "Doloris, there is no time to walk through life anymore. You've got to touch things and feel things and make everyday worth it, or it's just another thing you're going to regret." Those words didn't mean a whole lot at the time until I finally understood what she meant the day she died.
She never told me she had cancer. I forgave her. I knew she needed somebody who didn't hold the letter C above her head everytime we talked. She told me lots of things, like how she watched her daddy kill himself with a knife and how her mother used to call her names. She told me that she loved women more than men. I knew what she meant. She didn't have to say it out loud and I didn't want to call her anything but Stacey. Gay just didn't do her justice. She once said, "Labels don't mean a thing to me. I'm still Stacey even if I'm gay. I still walk and talk the same. I still share the same blood as my father, my mother, my brother, my sister. I still laugh and cry and need and want like everybody else. But most importantly, I love just the same."
I sat right up front on her funeral day. People looked but I just looked away. I said a little pray and thanked God for sending me an angel. She changed my ways. And I knew at the time, and I know now that God has a special place for people like Stacey Lorraine.

Weekend in Rexburg

This weekend I had a blast! I really did & I'm not just saying that to sound nice. This weekend made me realize just how much I miss out in my family's lives and I really need to get out there more. Now that I have a capable to car to do so, I'm going up as much as I can!!! It's exciting. I took some photos of my cousins just for the fun of it. They are cute and so much fun! It's getting colder so we can't do all the stuff we usually would outside, but inside we watched movies and played games. We made yummy chocolate oatmeal cookies! I drove for what it seemed like hours this last weekend, but it was worth it :) I watched The Stepfather at The REX with my two cousins, Ashley and Jessiney. It was interesting, and the thought of that guy made me sick. Not the best show in the world to watch if you already fear step-parents. I have auditions for districts tomorrow. Wish we luck. Although, I won't be disappointed this year if I don't go. Only because my group really doesn't get it and frankly don't deserve it. They have this idea that they have a set spot at districts so they don't have to work for it. I just can't wait until college where people take it a little bit more seriously. I love acting and want to share it with those who do too! But for the second experience I hope to go. I'm a little nervous, but once I get up there it all goes away so I really don't know why I worry in the first place. Wish me luck anyway. Or more like "break a leg" I also got to go the the Rexburg Temple. It's beautiful.

-samantha averett.

Unstoppable

It's November now and I'm unstoppable! I'm really loving the fall/winter season. The colors were so bright in October and now they are fading, but the world still looks just as beautiful. I've been keeping busy and drama districts are honestly just right around the corner on the 21st. I really hope my group and I make it. I've some challenges with them and at first I didn't think they wanted it as bad as I did, but it's slowly changing. I wish it would have been that way from the start but I can't change the past. I'm happy now. I was a total (i'll say it) bitch the other day, but I'm really just trying to relax and realize there is only so much I can do. This weekend I have senior photos as well as family photos :) I am visiting family and maybe I'll do a few surprise shoots! My dad is going out of town and so am I. We are going in separate directions though. Ha. My car is getting fixed so I will be using my dad's and he will be in his friends car. I just had my first choir concert of the year and it turned out pretty well for my choir :) We are fundrasing this fall/winter and so I'll hit some of my family up when I'm down North. I'm excited to see how this next Tri goes. I have History to look forward to in place of Economics. God I am going to miss that class! I just finished reading The Crucible for the second time :) It's amazing and I cry everytime near the end with Procter dies ): Such a classic! Arthur Miller = amazing! I am begining The Scarlet Letter here shortly and Nathanial Hawthorne's writing is so not my style, but I'll try it. Well there's the sum of it. Enjoy your November. Keep in touch and look at my photography/portrait business :) Hahaha!!!

-samantha averett.

Don't judge a book by it's cover

Hello everyone. I have just completed my fist paid Senior Portrait Session :) I am actually very proud and learned many things. I had a lot of fun with this senior, Brandon, because he wasn't what I had expected. A football player with a hidden artist side. He is brilliant. Very smart and talented. I feel much of a connection while doing senior portraits and particularity with Brandon, I felt welcome. We were both creative and I had him do some shots I wanted and made sure he knew that he was free to say whatever. I really hope he likes the turn out of the photos and I wish him well on his journey through life. He was another kid to prove me right on "Don't Judge A Book by It's Cover" Thanks Brandon! I wish you luck in this world.