Home for Christmas (:

I'd rather be home for Christmas & I'm glad I made it home just in time for Santa to come to my house. (: This morning was wonderful and all the little and big things that I got doesn't compare to the memories I will keep and share with the ones I love. (: It's been a good, full and rough year, but I've found what matters the most to me and I am glad that I get to do the things I do. I am glad for my freedom and the trust bond that me and my father have (: Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays. Remember how much you are loved and if you're not with your family or friends then know that someone is thinking of you (: & It's me!

She wears makeup at night

She's afraid that even in her dreams
Nobody will see her true beauty
She's afraid of that boys feelings
Wonderin' what he's thinkin'
Wonderin' if she's even blinkin'
Is she starin' right in his eyes
Or is she listenin' to all of those lies
She doesn't see that cover up
She doesn't paint those eyes
She wears makeup at night
Afraid of what they'll say
What she doesn't know,
Is that she was made just that way
Just the way she is when she stands
Just the way she is when she smiles
Just the she is when she cries
If only she knew
She would fly so high
If only she'd let what they said...
Roll off her shoulders
She wears make up at night
She's afraid of her own sight

Permit & Mamma Mia

Hey guys! Gosh, it's been a long but filled week. Sorry I have not been able to post much of anything. I just got my permit! It was nerve racking knowing my father was in the back seat, but I made it through! Yay! 6 months of practice and then I'll have my license =] It's okay that It's so long because I can drive in between and this weather really isn't making me want to jump out and drive anywhere anytime soon, really =] <---haha. Well, Mama Mia. I just watched the movie and I adore it. My choir & I are putting it on in February, at least the musical part! Yay! Such great music with a wonderful funny story! I hope to audition for solo's! Christmas is coming and I am glad that my house is warm, this weather in crazy cold! Well I hope to post things soon! Check out my Photography Blog =] ---> in the links!

Beautiful Blessings

This season always helps to remind me of the things I have and the people I have met, whether good or bad, I've always found the beauty in them all. You could say I am a positive person and some might disagree but I find that every little thing is what counts and all of them put together = blessing beyond compare. I appreciate those who make me smile and usually I find myself smiling as I make someone else smile. Making a person's day is a goal of mine and I have often been told that I've accomplished this simple task. No matter how simple it may be, its always rewarded me with such large blessing =] Befriending people is what counts and keep your word is a big deal =]
This picture below is of my beautiful cousins, Jason (4) and Jared (2)! Little children give me warm feelings when they smile or say something unexpected and they are always suprsing me. The most innocent creations out there and I only wished I could have stayed as innocent as they are now.
Such beautiful boys =]

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS GUYS!

The picture above is one I took of some traditional snowmen my mother made when she was into crafts and stuff =]
Today I spend most of the day watching the snow fall, taking pictures & decorating the house to make it feel and looks more like Christmas at my house. Now it is very warm and cozy and I am very satisfied with the way it turned out! It looked beautiful and my day was spent happy & warm. I like these kind of days. Laid back but purposeful and enjoyable. Christmas is almost here and I don't know what you celebrate this time of year but whatever it is just enjoy the warmth of your home and the friends that you find =] Also, enjoy your break; if you get one =]
I am looking forward to my break and can't wait for the New Year =] 2009!
Wow, it's seems just like yesterday that it was 2001. Had it really been that long? I feel much older and wiser =] That's a good thing, I guess!
I have been listening to Christmas music all day and nothing else! It definitely gets you in the Christmas mood and cheerful spirit! All this snow makes it even more believable. Of course, if snow doesn't prove winter for you than Christmas should do it =]
It's cold but beautiful here in Idaho & I really wouldn't have it any other way. Something that would be amazing is to spend Christmas in New York. When I went there is was great but just to feel that Christmas spirit in New York would be a great gift! I don't really have a list this year. Anything I get will be a blessing because of the economy and money issues. So feel free to make me something! That's what I have been saying to most of my friends =] I love the homemade!
For some reason it lasts longer and it's more special if someone makes something rather than buying a gift that I eventually give up on. Love you all & enjoy yourselves! Seriously, whether you spend time with your family, or spend it alone, Just remember how much you are loved!
REMEMBER YOUR BLESSING =]

HAPPY HOLIDAYS
-SAM

you're beautiful

"the fear i once felt isn't there anymore, because i'm not afraid of what people might see in me or what they have not yet experienced. I'll shine through the rooftops and the alley ways. no matter how cliche. I've got a place to be, and I'm not breakin' that for anyone to believe. this is the time for change and telling everybody the truth. so let yourself break free. no matter how lame you sound, you're beautiful in every way. yeah your beautiful in every way. And tell yourself that every day."
you're beautiful

I know my destination

i turn 16 in january. i love simplicity and adore the homemade :) anything and everything is always the key and i don't go through a day without thinking of my dreams and where i might end up. i know i will never stop learning nor do i want to. no matter how boring things may get i always know i can look forward to something fun, because my life is so full of good things and i try to find them as they appear more frequently now. i didn't really notice until i found what i was looking for. i have found the true path of mine and my desire for it has grown ever so strong. i plan to put my name up for everyone to see and someday the world will understand the meaning of true diversity.i am ever so clumsy and such a perfectionist. i always have something to say but my words don't always come out right. i am the kind of person who will be gentle but i won't lie when it comes to the cold honest truth. i am completely opposite from straight-edge and i like to let loose here and there. i have friends who help me and it's always for the good, whether i feel good or bad about it, in the end it always helps me to improve. i know i won't change who i am but i will better myself for the world to see my true potential. i have a weakness for boys who can sing or play the guitar/piano. i am an actor who just happens to sing along with every melody that surrounds me. sometimes i do wish my life was a musical. my life is simple really, but never do i go through a day without a complex situation. i can only take the kind of drama that involves a stage and i have realized that trying to please everyone isn't my strong point. i will do anything and everything for those who will do the same in return. i try to say yes as many times as i can but when i say no, i mean it. ask me some questions & i'll be sure to get back to ya.

thanks for reading!

BeHappy!

sometimes i wonder if it's possible^


"the truth may hurt,


but sometimes the truth is worth hearing,


because the truth tells a story


that only makes sense with all the pieces."


-samantha paige.

Steven is gone

=[
im gonna truly miss him & his talent.

i almost cried.

I saved it for now.


i am crying, seriously & for a perfectly good reason.

he's the kind of guy who says hi in the hallways at school
or takes the time to talk to you.

he's brilliant & one of the few good guys out there.


i wish him luck in Minnesota & i am trying to remember how hard it is to move to a new place. he's gonna do fine.



=]

Things Aren't Always Set In Stone

That's for sure^. Boy has this week flown by with all the chaotic things I have miraculously accomplished; I am still amazed. But don't think to question it's remotely close to finishing with a standing ovation. I still have a ways to go but this week has been one of my worst weeks; meaning chaotic. It's been fun and satisfying, mainly. I have had a few weak moments & being sick doesn't help the situation but I am confident that I shall finish this week with somewhat of a sign of relief noted close by. I finished and passed my written drivers test with flying colors. It was long but rewarding to know that I know more than what I started out with. I mean, I thought I knew most everything about driving as I began, because watching parents throughout my years = much help and made me confident enough to get behind the wheel. I've always wanted too but I never knew how much I'd learn, seriously. It's been a long two months, but worth it since I will be driving the rest of my life.
This last week I've realized just how much plans don't go through most of the times. That's why we as humans come up with "Plan B" It's quite helpful actually and I tend to use it more than needed. I have my choir concert tonight at 7:30 PM and I am excited for my grandmother's and aunt<--(maybe), to attend. I have worked hard as an individual and enjoy singing very much. I'd rather act than sing but I find that I fit in both & will keep singing until my voice fades on me. (: I hope that you come if you find choir concerts enjoyable and such. I also preformed my piece today with Toni & the class loved it. I feel like I could have put more effort into the writing part and not procrastinated as much, but we seemed to pull it off quite nicely. Christmas Break couldn't come any faster if I pushed it along myself. I will have so much relief once it's finally here. This Sunday is my cousin, Jared's, birthday and he is turning two (: I am going to eat some cake and ice cream and play with him and then prepare for another long week of school until break! I have two articles due soon so I must be on my way with the finishing touches of my rough draft. I am such a perfectionist. Taylor & I discussed a few topics today in A.P Bio and none consisted of Biology (= I love that kid. Well I am going to do what I must & I will hopefully blog some more once my schedule settles down.

-SAM

Beautiful Things Never Last

Where the leaves may turn colors
& the snow may fall
I'll be there to witness it all
Where the children cry
& the people turn to a lie
I'll understand; I'll know why
Where God isn't present
& we give up on him
I'll stand up, I'll question them
Where our feet feel numb
& we've had enough
I'll be there to push us on up
Where people waste their chances
& living for today isn't their motto
I'll stand up, I'll sing staccato
Where beautiful things never last
& people dread the future & live in the past
I'll be there, whether bounded, whether vast

On & Off.

I have been sick on and off lately. As most of you know I was in the hospital about two months ago from an infection and I had to get that yucky ivy in my vain. Ew. It didn't hurt but looked gross with all the blood. I missed a day of drivers ed that day because I was stuck in the hospital with my dad and doctor. I am much better now, but I was also dehydrated and that sucked a lot. Since i missed drivers ed I have to make it up tomorrow along with my final test! Until 8 PM tomorrow night.Yuck! I hate being sick because I miss out on the best things in life. Like going to school and accomplishing the things on "My List" (: It's snowing right now. I am excited for that & since I am home & have rested long enough, I really think I will put up my Christmas tree. Being sick sucks! Honestly, I would do anything for my body to feel better again. Yuck. Any advice on what to do. My mom was always the one to take care of me when I was sick. But now that she's gone, My dad just works a lot and tells me to take Tylenol and sleep. It works but it doesn't make my mind feel any better. So seriously, any advice, feel free to add some? Or let me know on myspace like most of you reply on. Thanks a tons!
-xo
SAM

Friends.

Sometimes the people in your lives that surround you are easily taken for granted. I kind of do this sometimes. But I just want my friends to know how much they mean to me & how much I will never purposefully take them for granted. They mean the world to me=]
Without friendship there is no determination or motivation for a new and brighter day. Thanks guys & I love you =]
-Samantha Paige.

Street Lights

This seems more like moments than memories
I can't guarantee that I will remember what took place today
But I know that this one moment defines my destination
The spotlight could actually be the street lights
The street in my runway
& my hope and all the tears I've cried can be my inspiration
Without those I can credit,
Who do I thank, where is my faith?
Happiness isn't just my awakening challenge
It's my timeliness and determination
One day someone will come
That someone will change my life
But till' then,
I can't just wait around for that one day to come
For the street lights dim
& my chances run thin
And suddenly there's no time to win
Make these street lights shine with meaning

Drivers Education

For everyone and anyone who knows I have been taking classes for drivers ed since mid September, I am here to tell you now that I am one class away from finishing and getting my permit. It's exciting! Finally...I can driver around, although I must be with someone over 21 years of age, I can still drive. I am not completely thrilled because I still can't drive alone legally but I am thankful that I am close to being one more step to freedom! Yay! Seriously, I have had to beg for rides from my family members who do drive and usually turn to friends siblings, their parents, or the bus for transportation. Now that's not such a big deal but life would be and will be easier once I get my license and car! I am fortunate enough to have taken the class at such a young age, but I feel behind because most kids in my grade have their license and a few freshman as well. But because of my college experience over the summer and taking classes I just didn't have time to take the class. But I am done now so no worries. I will have my license and night license at the same time so I won't have to wait like most of the teens in my class! Because I will be 16 1/2 when I officially get my license! Yay! I am a great driver and I know that because my dad even told me this. He is a very experienced driver and of course bias towards me but I know this anyways because my teacher has given me good grade! nothing below a B! My destination drive is approaching and so is my final! Wish me luck!

Edit,

"I believe that if you took the time to care about me, you would see just how much I care about you."

Call Me If You Need Me
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To Do List.

In my blogs I have been known to show my agenda. This month is full and I am barely leaving enough room for me to breathe. There is a main event happening each week and I really am trying to decide what to participate in and what to leave out. I really don't want to leave things out but I am afraid I don't have enough time. This week is state for drama and this weekend I have to fix my dress for my choir concert that is on the 11th. I know I won't be doing a whole lot of writing and that includes my personal writing. I feel bad but I must do what's on my to do list. I really wish I could do everything and I will try with all my power to do so, but I need breaks in between and I hope you all understand. For those of you who read my myspace blog and livejournal, thanks for keeping up and leaving comments/feedback. It makes me feel like someone is out there helping me every step of the way. & for those who are just beginning, you're in for a ride. <---Haha. Today, Dec. 1st I received my drama sweater! It's warm. Another thing that I am happy about it that most of my teachers that I e-mailed, responded to my survey for journalism. That's something I didn't think they would have time to do, a silly old survey, but it's going to help for my article and they can later read it. Today's blog seems extra long because I feel like I am actually talking to you all personally (: Well, wish me luck for this week and next. Preformances are my favorite but I always get nervous. Oh & If you want a Poinsettia(s)... Just let me know ASAP. The last day is December 10th! Thanks.
-SAM